Harmonizing goal setting and being present

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Achieve by August 2016
I've always been an avid goal setter. I can't tell you how many goal lists I have - short term, long term, a travel bucket list, and a yearly priorities list just to name a few. I basically take a life inventory of myself. It's okay if you rolled your eyes, I did too.

In the last year and a half or so, my goal was to learn to be present. I've always admired those who could be so consistently present. Whether it be conversation or quality time, they're just there 100% of the time.

I've been more of a 60/40. 60% mentally present and 40% planning ahead or wandering elsewhere. I noticed how it was affecting my relationships and completely feeding into my already awful perfectionist habits.

So, I've in a way, taken a break from goals. I've just lived, breathed, and pretended to be spontaneous and I can't tell you how freeing that's felt. Even through photos, my face looks more peaceful and joyful than it did a few years ago.
Goal Setting in Big Sur
However, I'm bad with moderation...in just about everything. If I'm focused in on something, I can leap from one end to the other. So, I've recently been thinking, when was the last time I set personal goals? Ones outside my job?.......Yeah.......

So, I opened a notebook that I had written 20 goals to achieve in  20 years as I did a 10 goals to achieve in 10 years - and I achieved all, but 1! After crossing some off, I decided to add a few more to make it 20 again.

It boils down to this for me, there has to be a happy medium of wanting to achieve the most for myself every single moment and being present to enjoy what I've achieved and learn from what I haven't. Maybe one day I won't be so hard on myself, but I'm human and it's in my nature to want to be better and to do more.
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San Francisco: Coit Tower & Union Square

Monday, July 21, 2014

I have a slight obsession. 
I'm in love with a city I've never lived in:
San Francisco.

I've explored this city and its neighborhoods quite a few times in the last year and I always leave wanting more.

Reasons to crush on San Francisco:
Cultured.
Beautiful.
Balance of nature + city.
Boutique galore. 
Good live music.
Coffee shops........
Incredible views.
People watching.
Food....but seriously the food...

It's a magical city. They say Los Angeles is where dreams come true, but San Francisco is where you go to create what dreams you want to come true.

Views from Coit Tower
Getting close to Union Square aka Tourist City
Cable Cars :)


Anniversaries & Nesting

Tuesday, July 15, 2014


I'm not sure what it is about tonight...
Maybe it was the soothing of Jack Johnson playing in the background or hearing my family's laughter over skype. It could have been the home cooked meal that filled my stomach or maybe it was the sunlight seeping through my blinds.

But it's been lately too...
I scurry around my kitchen and it's familiar and known. I've grown to like the way my apartment smells after making my morning coffee or how the twinkle lights brighten my living room on a summer night. I enjoy seeing familiar faces and feeling fortunate to know a small sliver of who they are.

Whatever it is. Whatever it has been. It feels like home. Who knew the every day, the mundane things are what make my home, a home. It's not the adventure that I thirst or the times spent exploring a city I haven't explored. All of those things help make me feel alive and attached, but the quiet and simple things about my life the past 373 days have established this sense of home to me...and it feels good.



On July 8, I approached my 1 year work anniversary and on August 3 I approach my 3 year anniversary in California. I may have lived in 4 different cities in this beautiful state, but each with its own lesson and each have played a role in my story of becoming. 

It's just different this time around. I'm not in transition or worried about where I'll live next. My belongings aren't scattered between friend's garages, my car, and a storage unit. It's all here with me, nesting in my peaceful home. 


"That thing I’m waiting for, that adventure, that movie-score-worthy experience unfolding gracefully. This is it. Normal, daily life ticking by on our streets and sidewalks, in our houses and apartments, in our beds and at our dinner tables, in our dreams and prayers and fights and secrets—this pedestrian life is the most precious thing any of us will ever experience." - Shauna Niequist in Cold Tangerines
Shauna's books help me digest the seasons of my life and I couldn't agree more that this current pedestrian life is one of the most precious lessons I've had in my young twenty something life.

Happy Nesting!

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